Lights Part One 1

I have a friend, whom I love more than anyone outside of blood family. She is a lost soul. Not that I doubt her salvation - but I think she doubts her own purpose, identity and 'life'. What does one say to someone who doesn't want to hear? She is a great burden on my heart, and I would give almost anything to see the Lord work in her in a mighty way. 

As I wrote this I was led to 1 Corinthians 4

"Therefore judge nothing before the appointed time; wait until the Lord comes. He will bring to light what is hidden in darkness and will expose the motives of the heart."

After reading that a heart pray gushed out for this friend, below is a prayer written from her perspective. 

Oh great God and Redeemer.

Light of the World!

Great Love that casts out fear,

we need You.

In the midst of our sorrows,

We need You.

In the midst of life's fulfillments,

We so desperately need You.

When our life has no direction,

Speak Great God, Great Love.

This world longs to divide,

bringing its division at every turn.

The enemy longs to ruin me,

and I grow weary at my demise.

Jesus, great and loving Jesus,

meet me here and let me know. 

I can not cry out to You,

but my soul longs for the Truth.

My hurt and pride bridles my tongue,

and yet my hearts speaks Your name.

You created me to love You,

though my mind doesn't know it.

I was made to dance before my Father,

a celebration and joy!

In You all things were made,

In You I can find peace.

You hold the world,

You hold me,

You hold my mom.

Jesus, Jesus,

She knew You not,

but i know You knew her.

Her pains she couldn't let go,

and took her life instead.

I refuse to believe she is gone,

and hold onto her daily.

Lord Jesus, I need Your peace!

Her death haunts me,

my daughter's questions hurt me.

I grow angry and bitter at the loss afforded me.

It is not fair!

I should not carry this burden....

Lord, the One Who Sees Me,

help my hands to let go.

To nail this sin, this burden to the Cross,

never letting go of love, but just of loss.

I have not the strength,

help my wounded soul.

I need thee,

though I can not express this longing yet.

Be faithful,

forget me not.

I will turn to You,

keep after me Jesus.

I so desperately need You, Love.

Amen.